Yesterday after that little outburst below. (Which I did, against my better judgment, cross post on facebook) Brandon let me know he has removed me from his facebook. Siting the reasoning that he needs somewhere he can "vent his feelings without being criticized".

I found this rather amusing, seeing as I've been told on numerous occasions that everything Ichidan is something we are expected to keep private from internet eyes, coupled with the fact the facebook is FAR from a private venting journal (As is clear from the reprimands I'm looking at from even my most generic of posts)

This further cements my choice to maintain this blog and bitch openly and honestly when I feel in necessary.

so I end this post with the statement "FUCKING BRANDON"

I'm sorry to reply so loud and long, but it seems your long winded statements have instilled the writing demon in me as well, funny how that works.

I question the reality you live in. I find myself wondering where you pull your inspiration from. Everyday I continually see your problems passive-aggressively thrust upon everyone else. Some statements twisted and and some completely made up. You take things and turn them to make yourself the victim every time, and jump on others that are only trying to help. Nothing is ever your fault and every setback is from people not listening to your exclusive point of view.

Your artful words a nothing but farce to keep yourself from looking bad, and the way you treat people when your around them is also nothing but a way to influence the ones around you. I know the way you talk when they are not there, you have something bad to say about everyone that cannot hear it. My full discloser here is that I'm also guilty of this very action, but have done my very best to move away from it. I will no longer play this with you. I'm not going to be to different people because I feel manipulated, threatened, and bullied.

Your passion is not an excuse for your arrogance, and your position is not a symbol of your power. You've taken things and twisted them to the point were I don't see a reason to play a PC game anymore. It is not worth it to me to keep this up.

and for a note of it, I feel in my full right to say this here, because clearly the rules have changed.
Also, I mean no harm to anyone, but I do feel tired of sitting and lying.

Blog? Blog!

I think it's about time to I admit that I have nested into the internet so furiously that I may never come out of it. But rather then talk about my lack of life (And one truly has to life when they only leave the computer for a period of a three day anime con) I'm going to try to make this blog focus on things that I can't talk about on my other social networking sites because of how few people I know in real life knowing about it.

I've found myself blocking and carefully sidestepping everything I say on sites like facebook are myspace, as there are so many people on those networking sites it's become almost as if it's real life. I have to be PC and considerate ALL the time. "Don't talk about your acting group's issues in public" "Don't bitch about so and so bitching about you" "It's not good for our non-profits status." "Don't call anyone on their behavior lest you yourself be up review by the board of nepotism!" Do I honestly care about the health of my group, yes. This is why I'm taking my bitching else where.

Don't get me wrong, I don't plan on using this blog for purely bitching. It's helpful to have somewhere I can bring up other things as well. Talk to the world without my personal life watching.

How do I expect to keep people I know from finding this blog? I don't. but if they find it it's there own damn problem.

Does anyone else have this problem? Has your internet anonymity become your second life reality?